Dear John,

You shattered me into a million pieces!  My heart is filled with creases.  I trusted so much; even looking in the mirror couldn’t help me see.  I was willing to stand by your side, even through the really bad times.  I write what I feel.  If I were colors, I would be Teal.  My face was flushed with tears.  You ran away from your biggest fear.  Letting me in, letting me love you.  The woman before, how could she hurt you?  I am not she, and you cannot see past me.

Always had a problem with the slip of the tongue, my anger keeps asking to come.  Now I keep it silent, until you’re sitting at my front door crying.  I don’t go down memory lane.  I lock that shyt up, dead bolted in my brain.  If you get a busy tone, just know love is on my other line.

If I no longer get upset, just know the love is gone…

If I no longer respond, just know I could no longer hold on…

If you are reading this letter, just know you’ve received my “Dear John.”

 Sincerely, Shattered but not Broken

"Thinking Of You Always"

The thought of you makes me smile, when you were no longer here I started to cry. The light came down on me, and with that my heart knew one day we would once again meet. I think of you from time to time. The day you passed will forever remain in my mind. You touched my mind, my heart, and with your loss you touched my soul. A real angel was here on Earth. We sit and tell stories about you, and laugh so hard. We now live our lives because of you. When people mention you, they mention all the good you would do. Like vanilla sky we wake, and it is a different time. But in our hearts you will always shine.

by Amarisa Mija Cardoso on Thursday, August 12, 2010 at 11:14am