Whirlwind

I started to become this person I no longer recognized. I started to shut down and spent most of my time in my head. I started to get angry to the point I could no longer cry. I wanted to say so many things to you. That I loved you and hated you at the same time. I wanted to tell you how empty I felt when you started pushing me away. Why did you come into my life like a whirlwind. I have been hurt before in so many ways but never like this. I have been in love before but never like this. I did what I could to get you out of my head but never like this. I loved that you made me open up and hated that you made me open up. I wanted to let you go and I decided to write this but never hit send. Sitting in my inbox sitting in my head. Every time I decided to write to you I decided to do this.. Letter to you letter to myself.

Epiphany

If I had a penny for every time we do this love hate thing I would have my own wishing well.

Looking at the bottom of the well, they all faced right face up except that one. I got lost in what felt like a love spell. The kind you only read in fairy tales. The water overflowed to the ground. My reflection was all that I saw standing alone.   
                                                        This was my epiphany. 

                                                I had to connect the two fish that ran through me

                                               One was strong the other was weak 
                                               One tugged at my brain 
                                               The other played with my heart strings smooth like a violin 
                                               I can't say I would want to feel any other way 
                                               Silver and green why did that intrigue me?