Love Note

I'm told I am very private

I am just very silent

I speak with my Writing

I speak with Colors added to a blank Canvas


Read me with your eyes

You will see how many times I have cried

You will see how many times I have loved

You will see the piece of that innocent little  girl

You will see the people that have come and gone

You will see me through every song note

I hear you

Don't be who I want you to be

Be who you were meant for me

I see little sparks of the truth

I love when I see bits and pieces of you

You make me want to show myself to you


When you are quiet you speak more than you know

When you speak you scream your silence

I hear you even when you don't want me to

 Looking at one picture and seeing multiple visions

Words  written in the sky

Trees growing from the earth

Children becoming adults

Dancing in the rain

The Beauty of being Creatively insane

I am awake

If I do not grow?

What is the point?

I have scars that cannot be seen

But I'm giving my guard a break

Taking down my wall

I am awake

Pulling out Tarot decks

Picking my own card

I decide what comes next

I am the empress of this stack

You are the future in my path

I had to detach myself, to reattach myself

Open

We complimented each other

I added the Milk

He added the Sugar

Like Ying and Yang

Filled with different colors

He Rubbed me down

His hands were smooth like butter

Had me in a Zone

The thought of him taking me home

Open my mind and work on my soul

I smiled at the sound of his voice

He told me to dream of him like I had a choice

I dreamt of him during the day

it was the first time I saw a Black Rose....

Over Flowing

I have the glow from the blood moon

Moving backwards was only an illusion of the retrograde

Playing say yes......

I'm not consumed with the physical

I'm consumed with the mental plane

Does it touch my mind?

Does it touch my soul?

I sat with my own thoughts for a while

Taking all the words out of my mouth

Does that make me weak?!

Keeping my energy to myself?!

Learning how to reflect

Learning how to protect my Spiritual

Arranha-Ceu

Tilted the cup and watched it drip

It was so fluid as it hit the tip of the table and trickled to the floor

The cracks of the tiles started to fill asking for more

No one rushed to clean it up

The feeling was like making love on a mountain top

Looking into your eyes as you got me high

Every inch of you by my side

Coming in to clear the dust

Longing for it like lust

The feeling of my soul about to combust

Words stuck on the tip of my tongue

Speechless with this one left me wanting more

Silver Moon

Cancun was like a silver moon

Loud talks slow walks

That water slowly glistened

Made me stop and listen

Meeting new people was not my mission

Kisses and smiles

Damn this week was wild

Tequila was the word of the day

Bartender kept pouring those drinks

I don't speak spanish but the word gracias just rolled off my tongue

Buenos dias this can be us

I sat by the pool with this young man

As we watched everyone swm around

He didn't know he was standing on his own stage

Once he broke out of his shyness

He helped me write this

My dress was soaking as I jumped right in

swimming until 2 am

Balance

I always felt misunderstood

Now I just feel like I understand

Some call me a dreamer

Some think I wear my emotions on my sleeves

Some have never seen emotion from me


I hear I'm sensitive ?

I hear I'm aggressive ?

I hear I hear I hear !

Tell me more about me ?

I think I am loving ?

I think I am giving ?

I think I am angry ?

I think I am sad?

I think I think I think !



Life looks  much better from this angle

Working on getting out of the triangle

I'm finally right in the middle

Let me  pull out my fiddle for you

Let me play this tune for you

Soul Tie

I'm going to flood your timeline

Not with only pictures of my life

But the words in my mind

I loved the pen since day one

Especially when I wrote without a rhyme

Let me take you inside

You might lose your mind

Welcome to happiness and sadness at the same time

I only function from one side of my mind

Screaming me too!

Taking time to reflect

Letting go of all the mess

I was wide awake while everyone slept

Learning to be more strategic with my steps

Going after what I want and asking what's next ?



I forgive my past

I want  you to know I left you behind

I  want you to know I been closed that door from you

I  don't even want you to utter my name in your mind

Cutting the Soul tie

I stopped asking myself why ?!

Behind You!

A woman walked into the room and thought are they all looking at me?!

They are looking at the man that walked in behind you

Every other woman thought I found you!

Only if they knew he was in love with the woman in front of him.

He thought I found you! I will be the strength that grounds you.

 She moved so softly there was almost a glow to her.

  I had to let  go of her . What could I really offer her?

Swim with me

I woke up today and everything felt so amazing

 Opening my eyes welcoming the sun in

The water dripping on my skin

 The music making love to my ear drums

 I slowed down and took the long route

 Freeing my Spirit

Freeing my soul

I can't swim but I'm jumping in

I want to hold my breath until I can no longer feel it

Floating on my back
                         
The world looks so infinite

Please don't hold my hand I want to immerse in it
                       
 Catch me in my element

Sitting on top of the willow tree

I'm so high up

This can't be a dream

When I see you there is no need to speak

I already met you in a dream

Did I get to deep?

Catch me in my element

Come swim with me

When I first started to write I was nervous to share my work but I knew someone would listen. Someone would let my words be their inspiration

I found myself sitting in a box wondering how did I get here? I felt myself dwindling . I hadn't felt like myself for a while my motivation had gotten away from me. As I sat with my head in the palm of my hands all I could think is please find yourself. Please do not look back and wonder why didn't you do more with your life. This is where my thoughts ended and my story began.

It took a child just a couple of words to open my mind. " every morning and every night say what you are thankful for and watch your life change" she might have not been the creator of those words but she spoke them just at the right time.

I looked into her eyes and I could see that feeling of life that I had lost. She was looking forward to the future. I wanted that feeling more than anything. To look forward to my future and not just ten years down the line but my tomorrow.

In The Kitchen

                                                 How I have changed in such a short time

                                                  She Said accept the CV in you
                                          I hear you speaking your language more often
                                           I see you embracing your culture a bit more
                                            I've noticed your hair has that CV touch with the Kinky curls
                                            When you speak you stretch out your letters a bit more
                                             I see you wearing your tribal prints Colors everywhere
                                              Now you are in the Kitchen baking
                                                your putting dinner on the table like your mother
                                                 You're spitting Knowledge like your father
                                           You're doing all the things you were taught but never embraced
                                                        So how about we both accept your culture

     

In My Thoughts

I sent him a kill bill text 

Had him feeling like beetle  juice 

Waiting in that line Like number check

Shrinking his head should have loved me instead 

When I stop caring I really don't give a fuck 

I  murdered you in my thoughts 

Gave you a piece of my mind made you see sparks 

The crime scene was a mess 

They said one shot to the chest 

I took half of your heart 

Placed it in my car 

I drove around for a while 


it was self-defense 

He came into my mind worked his way into my heart

He took my body every time raw

I thought he loved me but he just fucked with my mental 

Heels

I been in a mood

Choking on the thought of you

I just want to breath but the oxyxen fills my lungs

I’m not scared of anything but love

I’m not scared to stand alone

I’m not scared to sit on my throne

I’m not scrared to fight until I can’t fight anymore

The feeling of wanting someone

The feeling of  biting my tongue

Minding my business moving along

I tripped on the brick road

My heels got stuck as a reminder of you

Drowning

She was a great white shark on the outside

Mistaken as a maneater

Just trying to find her place on the ocean floor

On the inside she was swimming in opposite directions

Getting lost in a pool of love

Drowning in her own thoughts

Scared to come to the surface

Her lungs rapidly filled with air

Running back to the beginning of the circle

She broke all of her mirrors too scared of her own reflection

Scattered pieces all over the ground

Broken Pieces that could not be rebound 

Bed of Roses

It took nine years first time I saw your face

I didn’t shed a tear filled with rage

Filled with fear of feeling again

If it wasn’t for my child I wouldn’t have made it through

Sitting on top of the world feeling so alone building a wall against myself and you

You tried to leave without saying goodbye

You thought you were protecting me

It only killed my insides

Numb to any love trying to come my way

I kept pushing until I pushed them all away

Swinging for life like a bolder

Once I caught my breath it felt like I was laying in a bed of roses

His Storm

Laying under his heart

As his fingers rested on my spine

He slept so peacefully

I felt safe for a second even in my mind

The only thought was how tight I held his arm

He made me feel so comfortable

I've never felt a calm like this before

I've never felt protected like this before

I would welcome his storm

They Fall Apart

Do I seem like I'm hard to trust?!

From the outside looking in

Through the shattered looking glass

Why don't they stay

Why don't they show what they say

Honesty is treated like a sin

Lies are treated like a gem

I'm not hard to trust

I'm hard to let in

Once they fall

They feel like they fall apart within

Take off your rose colored glasses

And let me in

Walls

They say it’s better to build a wall and not let people in

They say life passes you by like the wind

Every time I  take down one brick

I end up adding two more

Each brick is labeled with your name

I started to wonder if you are really out there

I’m filled with Love, Joy and Pain

Hiding behind the wall filled with heartache

I get lost and not sure what to say

Sometimes I want to be angry

Sometimes I want to be sad

Sometimes I just want to run away

In my head I’ve already packed my bags